So sick of the control shit. It has extended into every aspect of my life. My ideas are twisted and taken on as someone elses and controlled to the point where I give up on them. Can or will I ever be able to fucking do what I want? Fucking forbid I even open up and say anything about it..I become the bad guy, the one to blame, the problem.

It is all in my head, is what I hear..yup it is in my head, I agree..but if it is there someone fucking made me feel that way for it to be there.