Nerves about travel were eased the first couple days when I could actually do a few things like walk..swim..and relax. I knew I pushed and did have a slight collapse in emotions and strength and had to just sleep. Hard to return to the chores and stress of daily life here. I got to see other places, different people, it energizes me. I need that..I see it now. Total change will happen eventually, maybe sooner than later if I look at it one way..or it wont happen for a couple years when I look at it another. I must keep open mind and heart, I must be ready for change and accept it.

I have always believed “I can bloom wherever I am planted” …that was before I became sick. I am not completely in doubt, but wonder how much I can handle at once. I guess I will see soon enough.