Years ago, I would have been scared. In fact I was..very scared. When the unthinkable happened I didnt see it coming, I was naive then maybe. Now I know, I see it and I have no fear. The same set of events, the same conditions, without the fear. Concern, yes..Fear..nope. Maybe all that I have endured makes my heart hardened to it. Maybe I am ready to be responsible for my own destiny.  Maybe I am done trying so hard to help someone that doesnt want my help. Whichever way it goes, if in fact the unfortunate occurs..I cant imagine how I will feel. One can never prepare for feelings yet to come. Maybe then I will feel the fear I once felt. It is just not there right now.

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