Sick of booze being a part of my life

I dont drink because I can’t. Meds I am on only make me sick when I try. But every day I deal with it.

Alcohol, slurring, sloppy behavior, one, two, three drinks..nasty attitude, smartass comments, verbal abuse, passing out, loud obnoxious snoring, gasping for breath desperately. Gross. Sick of it. Hateful of it. Wish it would go away forever.